What's right Who's wrong

Lost in a world 

Where thoughts are muddled

A state of confusion 

Amist trying to hustle 

The weight of gains 

Against the value of losses 

Lessons to be learned 

Worth whatever the cost is

Survival meaningless

Without a righteous conscience 

Now that you've gone

Lost are my emotions

Numb is my heart

Devoid of my passions

Looking to restart

In search of direction

Though the void is clear

No way to fill my heart

Of what was once there

In my heart forever

My memories all aglow

Bringing smiles and tears

As my love shows

Nothing can replace you

Though life goes on

Just cherish the memories 

And live life strong

Show how you raised me

With persistence and strength 

Share with kindness and gratitude 

Your love won't fade

 ... forever in our hearts

WWIII 

GoodBye Mom

I knew it was coming 

So why am I lost

Though there's no way to prepare 

No understanding the cost

Often dazed and confused

I question why

Not of the lost 

But why I cry

You lived a full life

Filled with love and success 

We, as family, can truly attest .

Your strength in love

Through care and traditions

Your testament of joys

Shown with our family's affection

I cry cause I'll miss you

And yearn for your care

I'll cry cause I miss you

Selfishly want you near

Understanding your time

Has come to an end

Your legacy of love 

Continues to win

I, son to my mother

Shall carry on

Sharing love as she taught us

Forever strong

State or mind

We know not what people hide
We know not the reasons why
Where their thoughts are
What they see within their minds
The pain they feel
The smile behind they hide
Their strength they use to constrict
The happiness they share does conflict
Sure we are not all the same
It's not unlike the ol' shell game
So why go for the abstract
When the truth they speak are the facts
Why judge and label and try to make sense
When they themselves are not convinced
Who has the keys
What do they unlock
Oh, thanks for the pills
They helped ... not

I am

September 7, 2014

My Heart weighs heavy
As it has been the previous month
Wish I could say it gets easier
It Doesn't. Sorry to be blunt
I get lost in emotions
Afraid I'll forget
Is it in the details
Or a form of regret
Never heard of expectations
Don't know if they've been met
I know that he was proud of me
By his actions not words said
I have learned what matters
Through his heart I see
And though they may be cloudy
I see and breathe
My heart weighs heavy
But it does not cry
At least not today
Not important why

From nothing to life

My Darkness breathes
The light for my heart
It provides the words
To which there's a spark
A Dark hopeless and despair
Images for which I don't care
Selfish in the way it acts
A Dark for which it lacks
For the Light of my heart
My words ring true
Of kindness, Faith, Belief in you
Thankful for this and much more
A Love from Darkness
Which I am born